I have just been enjoying some great worship music late; actually, it has been gospel music, which I never got into before. It has some great music with some great messages.
I still struggle with the same issues of what to do when. Even this blog can be that way. I feel stressed if I don’t post to it often enough. But I have really been trying to prioritize lately. A friend and someone who I consider my pastor challenged me a couple weeks ago to totally give up everything—twitter, facebook, e-mail, skype, everything for a whole 24 hours. He thought at first 3 days, but I didn’t think I could do it. That time was so refreshing for me. I have meant to do this now once a week. I didn’t this week, but I think I will next. I have been spending more time worshipping and really learning to trust god more. It has been good for me. I have also been spending more time with the people I call my skype family
It is slow for me, but I am learning. Today, I was proud of myself. My husband had started his walking workout. We have been trying to get 10,000 steps a day because it gets us points with our health insurance company. They have a program where you record your steps and different healthy things you do. It has been good for me, and I also have realized I need to drink more water. Today, when we were all about to leave the skype prayer group that I am a part of, one of the people said we could call him on skype if we wanted to fellowship some more. One of the girls there asked if I was going to call because she had a question to ask me. I started to feel guilty because my husband had started his workout and I intended to join him. It is great motivation for me, and I almost have all my steps in. It also felt great to spend that time together. I told her no, but if it was a quick question, she could ask it now. She said she’d catch me later. My fear of what it might be, whether it was technical in nature or whatever, usually would have had me running to make that call. But with my new prioritization I am trying to do, I didn’t. I let it go. Maybe I didn’t completely because it’s still on my mind, but it’s on my mind because I’m actually proud of myself. I really honestly do not care what it is right now. I went and did my walking, and it felt so good. I will either find her later or she will find me, and it was up to her if she didn’t want to quickly tell me.
Anyway, it is still a struggle, but I am learning, ever so slowly, and I feel more at peace than I have in a very long time.
I have also been reading “1,000 Gifts’ by Ann Voskamp. If you haven’t read this book, it’s a real eye opener. She talks about making a list of 1,000 things we are thankful for, even the small things, like birds singing or a nice, cool breeze.
This post, to me, seems like it might be a bit muddled, so I hope it makes sense to everyone and blesses you.